'Goodbye.', I've got to tell it to you hoping that I'll see you again.
It just feels like the thing I ought to say much like expressing 'Amen'.
It's just that, you've been with me so long a part of me has become you.
Granted, that side of me is just more of myself that over time grew.
I guess I want to say that I still care as much as I ever did.
But, at the same time, there's a maturity to me now through the so long I bid.
You were 'special', you were everything, and still the most awesome gal I know.
I never had the kind of love I hoped for but there are other qualities that can grow.
It's just like, to me, this feeling we skipped by each other somehow.
Didn't quite see everything just so, and there are other paths to take now.
I don't mind- you're happy and that means enough to me that something is right.
Whereas before for so long I was keeping myself awake thinking of you at night.
Heck, maybe you were my 'One' and I messed up, then again, maybe not.
I can at least look to the future now and keep in mind the ideas you've taught.
Like maybe, the person I'm meant for isn't just like you and I can discover more.
Yet I can hold on to the things that in you I've always had love for and adore.
I let go, and I have someone else I need to thank for that, or maybe you can.
If things go right then you'll do better than I did back when things hit the fan.
I want to hold on to my ideals, and it's harder these days than ever before.
I get older and it seems things are changing and they make me shake to the core.
I don't know if I can find someone who makes me feel the way you could.
I don't know if anyone finds the joy in me, and I don't know if anyone would.
But that's a part of it- I'm this real person that has a whole life already built.
Who I am now has to be right -somehow-, I'm still in the game, I haven't gone tilt.
And I do cherish how you made me feel, it's like this awesome chapter in my life.
Even the tough times after, and also since, all that pain anger and strife.
It gave me a kindof tough rough edge but I'm still really mushy in the heart.
And yet I really, really want to thank you for being in my life, your own unique part.